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Friday, January 25, 2008
dear mirru :)
i know, it's been a very long time since i last blogged. sorry about that.
anyway, i'm working part time now as a backstage crew for a musical shows called ChestNuts. for two weeks only, though. But the work is very tiring ; from afternoon (and sometimes morning) til midnight.
and oh, i kind of lacking money now. my student bus pass had expired and now my transport fees are like; exploding since my workplace is at national library aka. bugis. not to mention i live in bishan too. -_-"
O LEVEL RESULTS.
i swear taking it was harder than sitting for it. i broke down in the hall; before and after taking the slip. hell, i did so much worser that what i had expected.
english - c6
malay - b3
humans - d7 (this one is expected)
maths - b4
science - c6
dnt - b3
L1R4 (without CCA) - 22
L1R4 (minus CCA) - 20
really, i cant be more disappointed than i was back then when i saw my dnt and my science marks. no offence, but both subjects were my strongest and i scored so much lower than i had expected and i felt like yelling the word F just now in the hall. i cried; and thanks to tong & utz & gerald for lending me your shoulders; i appreciate it so much. but yeah, i was pissed off. by myself.
but that was just now. i'm fine now, since we shouldnt cry over a spilled milk. i'm just hoping that i still can get in to the course i want to now.
God, bless me please.
Posted at 02:43 am by mirru_val
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Friday, November 30, 2007
dear mirru.
what am i, a selfish brat?
dad called me. he was crying. why?
because he said that as much as i want to fulfil my dream, he wants me to do so as well. but i can't. why?
because there's no money.
simple, isn't it? financial difficulties.
i had no idea how many loans my parents had borrowed.
i had no idea how hard their lives were ever since i came to Singapore.
why, why? why didn't they tell me earlier?
i could've tried figuring things out.
argh.
argh.
i feel like a selfish, stupid child.
I WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS. A SINGER.
DAMN IT, SM ENTERTAINMENT.
WHY ARE YOU IN KOREA?!!
!@##@!#!@
so i shall wait for 2 more years.
I am sure there will be a way...
if there's a will, there's a way...
i hope...
i wish...
Posted at 01:40 am by mirru_val
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Monday, November 26, 2007
dear mirru.
and so i made up my mind and gave a call to my parents yesterday. i told them what i really wanted; and i didn't talk to my dad yet, but i did talk it out with my mom. she told me she dislikes this sort of entertainment - thingy, but i told her that this is my wildest dream ever and right now that the chance is right in front of my eyes, i'm not going to let it go for the forth time. then when we ended the call, she told me she'll give me the answer by tomorrow (which is today).
then around 8 o clock just now i gave her a call again. seriously my handphone bill is so going to explode, but i can't care less now. i know i want to do this so badly, i think i am really going insane from all the worries and thrill i am facing right now.
she told me that she had discussed it with my dad and they both disagreed at the idea. well, expected, actually. and so i began explaing to her again about how important this is to me, but i understand what she's feeling now. i know she's afraid that the path i chose might backfire and destroy my life etc etc but I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING for goodness sake! i didn't decide i should do this overnight; darn it, i had thought of this for 4 years already!
and i can't possibly wait longer. my life is only ONCE and i wanna live it to the fullest. i told her that THIS IS really what i want to do and i really wish i could get their supports. am i selfish to say so? i know that my parents are important to me; i always told myself to listen to whatever they say, but not this time. i know it's not going to be an easy road to walk on, but i know i will be able to make it.
please let me be stronger.
God, i know very well that fulfilling my dream won't be easy; that i might feel like giving up along the way. but i know that this is what i want and i am so not going to give up.
I'm sorry that i have to be selfish; i am so sorry i have to choose a path that was never expected previously. but please be by my side and support me along, i don't really need more people to tell me that my dream was close to impossible.
and so even if it's impossible, so what?
all i have to do is just making it possible, as simple as that.
but of course, i know damn well that it's easier to be said than done.
God please bless me.
Posted at 10:04 pm by mirru_val
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Sunday, November 25, 2007
dear mirru.
i am so sorry that it has been ages since i last updated.
today i am going to pour all my heart out here.
many people who i confided in told me that my dream was impossible to achieve, but i know i can if i try, and i know i WILL achieve it if i am given the chance. call me selfish; i know i am a bad child for telling my parents that i want to go to somewhere further than my location right now. but it's my dream, i want to fulfil it. i am not some kind of girl who can just sit at home and daydream; i am not someone who will follow the flow and get in to the college with the mindset, "oh i don't know what course to take."
the truth is i had been wanting to try this, i have been dying to go for that audition. even since last year, or perhaps ever since i tried acting, dancing, or singing altogether. i can't imagine myself being a student who studies in school and at home... i am just not the academic- type.
I LOVE PERFORMING and i know that's my passion.
and now that the chance is right in front of my eyes, i want to take it. i don't want to have any regrets. i wish that my family could understand...
no, they do understand. but they are afraid that my dream would destroy me... but i know it won't. so what if it's a long way to go? so what if there are many obstacles ahead?
if i stay strong and move on, i know i'll finish what i started.
and God, please be with me along the way. i know it's easier say than do, but i also know that i AM ABLE to do this.
it's going to be a long, long, rocky road ahead of me. but i know it's my dream and i won't give up.
Posted at 07:52 pm by mirru_val
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Monday, November 05, 2007
Show Me Your Love
RAP(micky)
Yeah~ What a sweet time!
TVXQ with a new family Super Junior!!
The reason why I'm shy! Because of your blue eyes!
Pure Beauty! Don't hide it from my side!
You know it. It's like bling bling ball!
Can't stop it even though it's not that cool
(Hee Chul)
These beautiful snow flowers remind me of cotton candy from my childhood
If only I was lucky enough to have memories of us
(Young Woong) Let me see the feelings you have for me
(Sung Min) I don't like any of the people whose phone numbers you have
(Xiah) You still don't know I've been waiting here all along...
(SiWon) If only your heart was a place I could visit
(Xiah,SiWon) That's what I see in your eyes..
(KangIn,DongHae,SungMin,SiWon,ShinDong,Yunho,Choikang,Han Kyung,HeeChul)
Just Show Me Your Love!
[(HanKyung) Just Show Me Your Love!]
So we can always be together
(Yunho) I will pray for it
(Ki Bum,Sung Min,Young Woong,Xiah,Eun Hyuk)
These feelings of mine are covered by white snow
(Xiah) There are too many clouds
(Sung Min,Ryeo Wook,Micky,Eeteuk,Yeh Sung) I'll go anywhere!
[(Micky) I'll go anywhere!] Anywhere you want me to go
(Han Kyung) Hold my hand
(Kang In,Dong Hae,Sung Min,Si Won,Shin Dong,Yun Ho, ChoiKang,HanKyung,HeeChul)
When the white snow falls, I'll ride it and fly
(Choikang) To I can look upon the whole world
(Ryeo Wook) Among the large crowd, you're the only one I see
(Choikang) I'm so happy, I can't believe I'm alive
(Kang In) The loud beating of my heart is uncomfortable, but in a way I like it
(Micky) I can accept lies, I just want to hold you
(Kang In,Micky) That's what I see in your eyes..
(Ki Bum,Sung Min,Si Won,Eeteuk,Young Woong,Ye Sung,Yunho, Eun Hyuk) Just Show Me Your Love!
[(Eeteuk) Just Show Me Your Love!] Words I want to say to you
(Eeteuk) Are too many
(Han Kyung,Shi Won,Choikang,Yunho,Ye Sung,Ki Bum) Just for today, look at me
(Ye Sung) In my eyes, I'll be holding you
(Ki Bum,Sung Min,Si Won,Eeteuk,Young Woong,Ye Sung,Yunho,Eun Hyuk)
I'll go anywhere!
[(Sung Min) I'll go anywhere!] In your warm eyes
(Dong Hae) I'm falling in
(Ki Bum,Sung Min,Si Won, Eeteuk,Young Woong,Ye Sung,Yunho,Euh Hyuk)
I'm just happy having you near me
(Ryeo Wook) During this winter that has silently approached
(Dong Hae) Always look like you do now
(Young Woong) I'm a little afraid I won't know enough about you
Rap(Eun Hyuk)] Cause I love you, My princess
You're the one I love, I won't ever change my mind
Don't hesitate to show me how you look at me
(All) Just Show Me Your Love!
[(Choikang) Just Show Me Your Love!]
So we can always be together
(Ye Sung) I'll pray for it
(All) These feelings of mine are covered by white snow
(Xiah) There are too many clouds
(All) I'll go anywhere!
[(Si Won & Han Kyung) I'll go anywhere!] Anywhere you want me to go
(Yunho) Hold my hand
(All) When the white snow falls, I'll ride it and fly
(Xiah) To look upon the whole world
(Rap)(Shin Dong) One(One) Two(Two) Three(Three) Four(Uh!)
Shin! Let's have a good time
Dong! Even if we get frostbite
I'll keep you warm in this cold winter Ha~
(Hee Chul) The words I screamed out to the sky
If they're covered by snow, they'll bloom as flowers
(Eun Hyuk) You still don't know
How we've become one over time
Forever we'll be together...
Posted at 06:13 am by mirru_val
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